I just finished a class last friday, hence the my absence from the blog coincides with the end of a course and finals.
I love to shop, so after an exam last week I went out to Target, being that it is my favorite store. I found a pair of dress trousers that I liked a lot. Itried them on and they were really cute...on the hanger. On me...it was not so pretty. They made my hips look huge where they were snug and then were baggy in the leg because I have to buy a size big enough for my hips. It is a never ending cycle. It didn't ad to my dressing room self esteem that I probably hadn't showered in a couple of days and was going on an hour of sleep.
Point is I have NO, Zilch, not one pair of dress pants that fit. This is not on over exaggeration! I truly have no dress pants! This is a problem when you are a medical student and you are suppose to look like a future doctor. Lucky for me I do have a couple of dresses that look alright, meaning they hide the pudge.
While at Target, I walked by the fitness aisle. At the end of the aisle display was all of these workout DVD's. I usually think to myself 'Who buys these?'. But as of that day, I am one of those people. I decided that instead of feeling defeated and settling for a temporary fix to my additional weight, that wouldn't it me better to spend the twenty bucks that I would have spent on the pant on two workout DVDs. I thought this was a brillant idea, and I will until the day comes that I have to wear dress slacks.
So this was the first one that I bought:
One of the three fat burning dance styles caught my attention and I had to get this. There is hip hop, country and ....BOLLYWOOD!!! For those of you who don't know Bollywood is an India style of dance. Riding on the excitement from my new purchase, I decided to try it that night. I started with the warm up, then the hip hop which was a lot of fun. The last two minutes of the 12 minutes dance sections is the cardio blast. Just when you think you're doing great, they turn up the speed and it was then that I realized just how out of shape I am. Next I did the dance section that I was most excited about- Bollywood. I am a fairly coordinated person, I grew up dancing and figure skating- NONE of that showed when this one came on. I am sure that I looked like the most uncoordinated idiot flailing my arms and legs around. It was ridiculous. But luckily it is a DVD and you can go back and try it again, which I had to do just so that I could follow the dance moves.
Even though I felt and looked like a total idiot, I am still patting my self on the back because I did it and I did have a ton of fun. I took a baby step towards my goal of exercising at least 3 days a week.
I normally focus on the major failure of doing something like this once and then not picking it back up for months, but this time I am taking a different attitude. I am just being proud of myself for what I have done and not what I haven't. It is so easy to feel defeated when you feel like you are pushing a boulder that keeps getting heavier, up a mountain that keeps getting steeper. That is at least how I feel trying to lose weight, especially knowing how many other things I have to juggle and worry about, weight lose easily gets the back burner every day.
So, I am going to try and get some more use out of my DVD. Challenge yourself when clothing doesn't fit to not just take the quick and easy way out of buying a bigger size, make yourself spend that money on something pro-weight loss. It might help you feel more invested in your commitment, for one you have to lose the weight because you need your smaller clothes to fit and secondly you have put money into your commitment to lose weight.
Ok- after a month's absence from checking in and a ton of cokes and junk food (give me a break I did have a lot of test and had to stay up into the morning most nights)
Drum Roll.....
Weight: 149Lbs.
Have not lost any inches : (
So not too bad, I was actually pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale today. I honestly expected to see a number closer to 160lbs. If your shaking you head at my estimate, then you honestly do not know just how many cherry cokes, frappuccinos and cookies I put away in the past few weeks. It was out of control.
My Challenge- work out 3 times before next wednesday
I know that my challenge is a baby one, but it is better to celebrate a small victory then be upset about a huge defeat. For me, I always try to set these grandiose goals for weight loss then am devastated because I failed at it miserable.
Lesley
